The grass was greener.

From nothing to nothing, I flow

listening to my voice, the ripples

of laughter and joy, tears and pain

teetering at the edge, insane.

Looking at myself through my eyes

Watching me walk down the aisle

stumbling and stopping as I approach

that which I fear most of all.

And then I find a blanket being drawn (over my face)

not white, not black, but the colour

of fear, I try to break free rip it apart,

I come back to life, to senses

Only to realize, I escaped insanity

to live an insane life, with no hope

and no promise of hope

I am not high, and out of dope.

My Love

Never talked to you in a direct way,

You always seemed miles away.

Yet whenever you talked, my dear.

It's like a whisper in my ear.

Looking into your eyes brown,

In them I wish I'd drown.

In those lovely depths of beauty,

I have found life's destiny.

Charmed with your smile,

I would walk a mile.

Lost in your words,

I found my God divine.

Thank you, my love

My beautiful tormentor.

You taught me life,

You were my greatest instructor.

Intoxication

Riding around on horses wild,

Never felt the breeze so mild.

Sky never seemed so blue,

World today has a different hue.

Eyes see clearly through the haze.

My life no longer is a maze.

Answers scream themselves aloud,

Life no longer has a doubt.

Smiling away at life mundane,

Flushing worries down the drain.

Think I am getting insane.

Alas! that's a drunkard's bane.

Everything calls you a fornication,

At best civil society's aberration.

But I am so close to salvation,

Thanks to you dear intoxication.

Suicidal Dreams

All that flows in my vein

Is nothing but a perennial pain.

Feeling it as my heart bleeds

As all light from it recedes.

You were the morning's shining Sun.

But you did all that for fun.

Lighting my life with your smile.

Changing myself with your style.

Now when all I know is you.

Then I find nothing was true.

Lost in your eyes so blue,

All I want is just pursue.

To live without you is pain,

Life seems to me, a disdain.

I find no place where to hide,

I see it best to commit suicide.

Tommy Dark

Listen to the story of Tommy dark.

He lived near the Fructo Park.

Splendid fellow with a flowing mane,

His only problem lay in his brain.

"Prize your life", he would say,

"Hide as long as the bullies stay

Survival is one's only aim

I support old Darwin's claim."

Time flew by and he grew old

But never did he get bold.

He did manage to get along,

For escapism in him was strong.

Will the bully, Michael the con,

Even the banker, Dexter is gone.

All of them had a life to live,

While fear remained his only relief.

Tonight I woke at midnight's stroke
In the quiet, I saw life.
Torn within with eternal strife,
As love, lust and money dangle,
Life seems to be the Bermuda's triangle.
Fight as you might but you will not win,
So just let go,'coz salvation lies within.

Looking at life through the crystal heart,
Everything around seems torn apart.
Innocence comes to a choking end.
Principles have an unscrupulous bend.
Lust sits on every window sill,
Sucking one's will in the spirit mill.

Deliver us from this world insane,
Soothe the undying spirit's pain.
Pray! give me your world divine,
Where every man has got his spine.

(The next few lines are dedicated to "Boss", a valued friend).

 When there is no fear n your mind is clear,
Then you shall find heaven, here in the Boss's den.
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The perennial pain that lay in my brain,
The ache in the body, the daze in the eye,
And through this haze I see one guy,
As on God's green carpet I lie,
Curse you Boss you lazy bum.
Why the hell did you give that rum?
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